Last week I spent over 10 hours in the car and never left Indiana! This week was shaping up to be the same, but a last-minute change saved me roughly two of those hours.
Between driving to and from Bloomington to finish out the semester and to a new contract job site, I basically lived in my car the past two weeks. But most of that came to a glorious end with the conclusion of the semester yesterday. Thank goodness. This was a particularly difficult one.
We’ve had so many changes in the past few months. The past year, really. It’s been a rough one. I strive to be a positive, grateful person, but I gotta say… I’m glad 2015 is coming to a close. I think the boys are, too. The last month has been odd for them, and we sort of think they’ve finally realized Lucas isn’t coming back. Plus, with John and I both having shifts in our work schedules, we’ve seen lots of anxious behavior that we haven’t seen in years: accidents in odd places at odd times, chewed-up stuff, strewn trash, scratched door frames, and so on. Oh, and clingy behavior to an epic degree. Emmett and Cooper have always been shadows, but it’s gone beyond that to a new level. If I happen to shut the bathroom door without anyone sneaking in with me, I open it to find Emmett, Cooper, AND Newt waiting outside. It’s not enough for them to be near us anymore, either; no, they have to be on top of us. Arthritic Emmett who hasn’t gotten on the furniture in well over a year has been climbing on the couch, on the armchair, in bed… it pains him to jump down, but he keeps doing it. (We tried to train him on a set of pet steps. Tried. Sweet Emmett. Not the brightest crayon.)
This is usually my favorite time of year. I love Christmas lights and hot chocolate and chasing Cooper around in the snow then warming by the fire. Of course it’s been in the 50s so none of that (except the lights) has actually happened. Decorating was hard. Unanticipated, actually. I don’t know why I didn’t think of all the little things, like Lukey’s stocking and his Christmas ornaments, or the things that completely floored us, like opening a box of decorations to discover that it was sprinkled all over with Lucas fur. (Honestly, his fur is still everywhere!) I think that’s why I haven’t been posting lately because everything feels sad and stressful and a bit, I don’t know, heavy for this time of year.
All that said, there are good things, too. A new project I can’t wait to announce. A food Cooper can eat that has actually helped him GAIN WEIGHT (I’m putting together a post about that soon). Time spent with good friends and wonderful family. So much kindness and generosity and love. And, of course, the end of the semester.
With that, just wanted to wish you all a happy weekend! We’ll return to real life sometime soon. Promise.