At his checkup yesterday, Lucas was amazing.
He has come so far since those early, fearful, aggressive days when the front desk staff would have to clear the lobby just for Lucas to even walk through the door. No, yesterday, he nailed it. Dogs on flexis, big dogs, little dogs, owners on their cell phones… we parked in the corner and doled out cheese and treats for nearly effortless “watch mes” from the big boy. Be still my proud, proud heart.
We didn’t get good news.
She moved the timeline from months to weeks. We sat on the floor with Lucas and his vet, and we cried. Then we brought him home and gave him a big, nasty, drippy, stinky bone. Which he loved, of course. We’re getting all his favorite things, like shredded cheese sprinkled on his meals from here on out. We bought yogurt and berries to make him ice cream. We’ll do as many micro-hikes as he wants and get him drive-thru afterwards. He’s chomping on a trachea right now.
I woke up just before 5 this morning to him twitching and crying in his sleep. It broke my heart, not because that’s never happened before–they all do it–but because I just want every second he has left to be good. No bad dreams. No bad food or sore muscles. No baths. Nothing but good.
The semester starts up on Monday, and I’m teaching two writing classes. I usually take a short blogging break during the first week because it’s so crazy getting everyone up and running. With this on top of it, well, I doubt I’ll be here much, though I’ll aim to post on Facebook and Instagram as I can.
Thank you for your continued thoughts and prayers and messages and support. This is absolutely the hardest part of love.
The blogs and FB are not easy places to be lately. Mr B, Sarge, Melvin, Corbin and soon Lucas. It breaks my heart. Love him and spoil him and enjoy him until the VERY LAST SECOND. And please give him a great big kiss from me on his big, beautiful black nose. Thinking of you all and still praying for God’s healing white light to surround Lucas. <3
This breaks my heart. They wiggle into our hearts, make us laugh and cry and make hour hearts burst. They deserve every treat and hug and wonderful moment we can give them, because they never ask us for anything. Their faces and eyes say it all <3 We will be think about you and your family. Sending positive energy and love 🙂
There are no words, Maggie. Just know that we’re holding all of you in our hearts and smiling through the tears and we think about Lucas enjoying every hike, treat, and happy dream. <3
You are in my prayers. Thank you for what you have done and continue to share.
Been there and it’s horrific. Can’t write. Just crying. Know there’s lots of us out here supporting you through this painful time. Going to go hug our furballs to wipe my tears and send virtual hugs and healing your way. — Dawn, Sasha dog, Lucy dog, and Stanley the Cat
Lots of prayers, love, and hugs your way. We’re so sorry. <3 <3
I’m so sorry you got that news, Maggie. But I know that Lucas is going to have nothing but wonderful times for the time he has left with you. ????
So sorry – those question marks are supposed to be hearts! They were when I typed them!
Oh, Maggie, that sucks. Give him, and you, hugs from me.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, love love love on him!!!!
This breaks my heart. I’m so very sorry. (((hugs)))
Oh, Maggie, I’m so, so sorry about this news! My heart is broken for you all. I know you’ll make every second of whatever time Lucas has left as happy for him as you possibly can. He knows he is loved deeply and dearly. You know he loves you at least as much. Y’all are in my thoughts, my prayers, and my heart. Give your boys some extra lovin’ and treats from me. (((BIG HUGS))) <3 <3 <3
Oh Maggie, I am so very sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you and your beautiful boy. All our love and prayers are with you.
Sending you all good thoughts, love and hugs and as many good days possible for Lucas.
Oh Maggie. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. Put the blog aside – put everything non-essential aside – and soak in every moment with Lucas. Keep remembering – he lives in the present, unlike us, and is not suffering the dread that you face. I love that you’re filling his here and now with Best Days Ever.
So sorry to hear this latest update and just know that I too am sending prayers and hugs your way.